Wednesday, 29 June 2011

'Coconut Unlimited' - Nikesh Shukla

Do you remember cassettes? Did access to a two deck cassette player seem like a technological turning point of your childhood? Then prepare to be charmed by Nikesh Shukla’s 90’s nostalgia filled debut novel ‘Coconut Unlimited’.

The novel begins as Amit, the narrator, prepares for his stag do. His old friends Anand and Nishant arrive for a Blood and Crips theme night and their appearance makes him remember a significant time in their lives when they formed a hip-hop band, called ‘Coconut Unlimited’. The novel is a tale of adolescence, told in retrospect and the rest of the book follows the teenage characters as they try to negotiate complicated, but typical lives.

Amit and his two friends are the only Asian students at a prestigious private school in Harrow. Pressured by the high expectations of parents who work multiple jobs to pay the fees and appear like martyrs to the boys, all are straight A students headed for sensible, well-paid jobs, until Amit discovers hip-hop. Listening to naively titled ‘Rap Trax!’ cassettes with his nerdy but confident cousin Neel he finds the music inspiring a deep, immediate feeling of power and excitement:

‘I wanted to remain cool. Instead my heart was trying to burst out of my chest. My mind was trying to pump its righteous fist...My mind was fizzing with the spirit of black power and black rage and black funk and black edu-tainment. It rendered me speechless.’

Although his life is far removed from the gang culture that his favourite hip-hop talks about and his Asian peers tell him he should be more into Bollywood, the spirit of hip-hop music speaks to him. It becomes an integral part of his identity and he rushes to convert Anand and Nishant to the wonder of the genre, so they can form a band and become glamorous gangster rappers.

Amit is a sweet, stumbling main character, a flawed teenager who reminds me a lot of myself at that age despite my different gender, race, background and musical taste. When his year is split and he’s left in a separate class from Anand and Nishant he becomes incredibly self-conscious and timid, leaving him open to being harassed by racist teachers and fellow students. To remove himself from the shame of these encounters he creates a harder persona that he can be proud of, based on grand ideas about his hip-hop skills and ‘showing everyone’. Amit’s unconscious decision to create a new idea of himself, that doesn’t quite match his outward presentation, is the first appearance of a central theme of the novel: the difference between authentic identity and fake posing. ‘Coconut Unlimited’ shows that it is not always as easy to sort out the difference between these two positions as the reader might think.

It’s that hard, shielding aspect of Amit’s fake personality that keeps him from developing better hip-hop skills and gaining more knowledge. He has little access to hip-hop culture, or music, so all his information comes from a couple of magazines which run hip-hop reviews and the tapes his cousin lent him, but he sets himself up as an expert on the subject. He finds himself required to bluff his way through hip-hop conversations, as (again I’m making assumptions based on my own recollections of teenagerhood now, as this isn’t explicitly stated in the text) to be taught about hip-hop would seem to take away from the authenticity of his connection to hip-hop (oh teenage self you were so embarrassing). Cue uncomfortable humour, as Amit tries to fake out anyone who seems to know anything about hip-hop:

'Ahmed nudged me. ‘So, who’s your favourite rapper?’

‘Nas,’ I replied without a misstep, even though I hadn’t actually heard anything by Nas.

‘Yeah, he’s good.’ Good? Just good? The guy was the best. Apparently. ‘But I prefer Wu Tang...’ This was getting confusing now, balancing popular opinion with genuine thoughts.

‘Yeah, they’re alright.’

‘Alright? Nas is just one man and there’s about nine of them, all with skills as big as his. Mans are great. Come round. I’ll play you “Protec Ya Nec”. It’s their gang mentality single.’

‘Yeah alright.’ ‘

Part of this posture is due to his fear of looking stupid if he doesn’t appear to know everything, but it’s also possible that other people’s knowledge threatens the protective shield of authentic power that his interest in hip-hop gives to him. When white, posh boys like his classmate Paul Fine offer to share his enthusiasm for hip-hop he disqualifies them from being hip-hop fans based on their lack of ‘realness’, calling them things like ‘cracker’, maybe because hip-hop gives him that feeling of difference that convinces him he will show everybody because he has big plans that will set him apart from the peers he hates. He doesn’t appreciate the irony of his rejection of Paul’s opinions, considering his lack of hip-hop knowledge and his lack of self-awareness highlights how ideas of authenticity can be complicated by biases and defensiveness. It’s unfortunate that Amit can’t let other people contribute to his enthusiasm about hip-hop, because learning more would be rewarding, but it’s not exactly unexpected as he has to keep his shields up so high in a world that constantly abuses him.

So, Amit continues to fake his knowledge of hip-hop, while also emulating gangster rappers and attempting to impress the awesome nature of his hip-hop hardness on all his peers. Many of the novel’s funniest moments come from the disastrous results of Amit’s self-conscious posturing and the disconnect between his constructed street personality and the anxious, straight A student from a good background the reader sees as real. Amit looks a bit of a fake fool at times, for example when he and his friends show up on non-uniform day decked out in serious rap clothes that they don’t have the confidence to pull off. Why teenagers?! Can you not see disaster coming? Of course, they can’t. Can any teenager see social exile coming, no matter how non-conformist their actions are? No, never (and isn’t that kind of a good thing, even if our adult selves does cringe for all the hassle that is sure to follow ‘being themselves’).

However, Amit’s presentation as a gangster loving Asian provides an interesting challenge to preconceptions about what creates fakeness and authenticity. As he embraces hip-hop and show contempt for typical Asian entertainment like Bollywood other Asian teenagers call him a coconut. Coconut is a derogatory term that implies someone is ‘not brown enough’ or is denying their own culture (Ari wrote a great post expanding on what being called a coconut means and I owe all my knowledge to her). Looking at Amit and his friends who go around calling themselves ‘politically black’, dressing like stereotypical gang members and sneering at everyone Asian around them it at first appears that they have dropped their culture in favour of something they feel is cooler. Talking about a local dealer called Ash, Amit says:

‘He was everything I hated about being Asian. He listened to loud bhangra in his BMW, spoke in a stupid bud-bud/street accent and was only friends with Indians.’


which suggest that he thinks stereotypical Asian culture is uncool and has rejected his Asian community.

However, as I see it rejecting your cultural heritage goes deeper than taking up something because it seems cool and knocking something else because it doesn’t (although unconscious elements complicate that idea). It implies an element of self-hatred, maybe even of internalised racism. To use a stereotypical gender example it’s the difference between a woman saying she finds teaching sciences (traditionally a male area of interest) more exciting than teaching humanities (traditionally a female area of interest) and a woman saying she thinks teaching the humanities is a worthless activity because it’s a traditionally female area of interest. The first example expresses a preference, the second expresses misogynistic cultural rejection. Amit’s interest in hip-hop doesn’t automatically indicate that he hates Asian people (while he dislikes that Ash is only friends with Indians, he also only has Indian friends) or Asian culture. The beginning of the book shows that Amit’s allegiance to hip-hop begins because he enjoys the music and towards the end of the book Amit clarifies why he decided to be hip-hop by saying ‘I decide I like something different from everyone else’, showing that his interest in the hip-hop world is a preference inspired by a desire to distinguish himself, rebel a little against his parents and follow notions of what is cool. It’s a pretty typical teenage preference that gets him unjustly persecuted for rejecting his culture.

He doesn’t identify with what he sees as the stereotypical aspects of Asian culture (although he could be nicer to people who do like those things). He doesn’t see why he should perpetuate these stereotypes just to appear authentically Asian, when he is Asian. His sincere, if less than well researched, feelings of connection to hip-hop confront common ideas that the authenticity of someone can be determined by examining their interest in light of their race. Amit’s character also shows readers that race doesn’t always predispose someone to be interested in a particular culture of entertainment. A wider examination of ideas about the connection between race and authenticity could have been provided if another character had expanded on the idea that sometimes when people take up a culture that is not traditionally associated with their race they do so out of internalised self-hatred, or for reasons of appropriation, but as it is ‘Coconut Unlimited’ throws some interesting complexity into the world of thought.

Like most novels in this world ‘Coconut Unlimited’ isn’t perfect. The ending is abrupt and includes an incredibly brief rundown of what has happened to all the characters involved in the novel, as the focus returns to adult Amit on his stag night. The novel’s conclusion is just about saved by a final hurrah for the boy’s terrible hip-hop band, which is predictable and sentimental but still gives out good fuzzies. Amit and his friends use the word gay as a negative term a lot. Other derogatory remarks Amit makes because he’s a flawed character, for example the way he talks about girls, are undermined cleverly throughout the novel. Unfortunately, I didn’t feel their use of gay was addressed as well. And a final blip for me was Amand's character, as I’m not sure we get much of a picture of his personality, beyond his status as a solid friend and a girl crazy lad.

At the same time the charms of ‘Coconut Unlimited’ are great. The friendship between the boys is affectionate and supportive. It’s actually funny, when humour seems so rare in
award nominated adult fiction sometimes. There’s a funny side plot about drug dealing in a posh school. And I hope I’ve provided a space in this post that explains what how sympathetic the main character is and what interesting ideas the text makes available. Even if you were never a misunderstood Asian/African/British hip-hop devotee living in Harrow the commonality of early 90s music technology and teenage uncertainty will help you form a bond with narrator Amit.

Tuesday, 28 June 2011

'The Dispossessed' - Ursula K Le Guin

I remember that a couple of people wanted to hear what I thought of 'The Dispossessed' by Ursula K Le Guin when I mentioned reading it for a Women in Sci-fi readalong.

Many moons later I've written something up. It's not quite a review, instead I lay out a summary of the book's central theme, with a few analytical thoughts scattered about. I hope it provides some interesting thought jumping off places.

My thoughts are posted over at a newish space that
Ana, Renay and I started a few months ago, so we could talk about women in entertainment media and get to know more about each other. I'm really loving this space and I'm looking forward to everything it brings. Now that we're kind of comfy over there it seems like the right time to invite you all round to Lady Business. Here's my post on 'The Dispossessed'. Feel free to look around at what we've put up so far.

Thursday, 23 June 2011

'The World More Full of Weeping' - Robert J Wiersema (Close Title Reading)

‘The Reading Ape’ recently spent a post looking at the first line of Margaret Atwood’s ‘The Blind Assassin’ which made me remember how enriching close reading can be. As one commenter said the brain does a lot of close reading unconsciously, but it’s fascinating to slow down and identify just what the brain is seeing and processing in a flash. I’m going to try my hand at something a little different today. I’ve decided to have a go at some close reading, but I’m going to take a look at what is going on in a title, instead of the first sentence. Bare with, this is a bit experimental for me.

'The World More Full of Weeping’ – Robert J Wiersema
‘The World More Full of Weeping’ is a title of some grand strangeness.
First the phrase ‘More Full of’ strikes me as an unusual construction. The graded quantifier ‘More’ sits before the adjective ‘Full’* in a way that sounds undeniably odd. Would you ever say ‘More Full’? It sounds strange doesn’t it, possibly even like incorrect grammar** ?

I almost think it sounds old fashioned, like a turn of phrase that is uncommonly seen (it’s probably more common to say fuller, although that would sit very clumsily in this phrase – imagine ‘The World Fuller of Weeping’). There’s no verb ‘is’ in between ‘World’ and ‘More’, which again I read as an old fashioned form of phrasing (I’m not really sure why though, I just feel like a sentence without all the verbs sounds like an older form of English). The old fashioned feeling is added to by the use of ‘Weeping’, a grand word of high feeling that isn’t used much in common, modern speech. Mourners weep at the funerals of great heroines in epic tragedies. I might be projecting on to this title, because I know what’s contained in the novel, but perhaps it’s possible to feel historical resonance in the wording of this phrase, which might be surprising as the blurb doesn’t suggest that this novel contains a historical storyline.

And that phrase construction, which feels old fashioned to me, gives the title gravitas. Add in the use of the word ‘Weeping’ and I’m feeling associations with weighty moments of sadness, or performative sadness at occasions of great importance. This novella feels like it will be concerned with important events, but the sense of maybe even formality suggests that the seriousness of these events may go beyond ordinary human tragedy.

Weeping is a very vocal, obvious display of sadness, that happens when terrible events like the death of a loved one take place. You don’t generally weep, or describe yourself as weeping because you’ve dropped the milk (although you might if that was the last straw in a series of terrible events). And it’s the ‘World’ that is full of this weeping, not just a world, which implies a personal tragedy, but the world. Either the events in this book affect the whole world, or they’re so tragic that it at least feels like the whole world is full of weeping to those involved. It’s a tragedy with a grander scale of feeling. So, we know this book is likely going to be about a truly awful tragedy. No reader is going to open this novella expecting happy endings and they might also experience levels of trepidation about how much tragic the narrative is going to be.

The fact that ‘Full’ is being measured, instead of rendered simply as a complete state, encourages me to ask questions about how full the world was of weeping initially. As the title opens the door for me to question, I suddenly notice that there are other things I want to know. Why the world is full of weeping. Weeping over what? What has happened here? That’s the hook to draw me in to the story.

Do you respond to the title the same way I do? What else would you pull out of this title?

* Yes I did have to go off and peruse
grammar sites to get there, I suck at grammar construction and I may still be wrong about that adjective, but I thought I’d give this a go

** It isn’t but it would have butted up against the general rule teachers gave out at schools I went to, that we should see if phrases ‘sounded right’ and if they didn’t they probably weren’t grammatically correct

Edited: In the comments AbbotofUnreason suggested that the title sounded like it had come from a poem and a quick search shows it is a phrase from 'The Stolen Child' by William Yeats, which considering what goes on in the novel is very appropriate. Does close reading of a title work if it's a line from somebody else? No idea.

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

Return of the Girl

I’m back, but not quite sure how to jump back into talking here. Waves...ummm. I could tell you what I’ve been up to, but the frame of mind I’m in now it could get rambly (as all my intros seem to be now), so let’s go for some highlights and a challenge wrap up:

Jersey - lovely, great food, but lacking in Jersey cows (we saw six on the whole island)

Nerds Heart YA – has started, see all the
first round decisions so far at the blog

Dunsinane (or Macbeth: The Sequel) at the Swan theatre – nice blend of knowing modern metaphor, revisionism and Shakespearean drama conventions, disappointingly anti-Shakespearean lack of main character death (die Seaworth, die), I liked the soldier boy narrator best, recommended

Car booting - they make you get up at 5am, still tired two days later, cleared stuff, made decent money (more than we’d have made working the same four hours at a minimum wage job, a bit more than I’d have made working three hours at my job)
Reading – didn’t read much while I was away, which is pretty usual for me unless I’m on a beach holiday, reread ‘Wyrd Sisters’ by Terry Pratchett, still gold, then mainlined ‘Slice of Cherry’ by Dia Reeves in post car boot sale haze of horror filled wonder (so much inventive murder, hurray)

Tv watching – so. much. crime drama British tv, I will talk about this later after I recover from the finale of ‘The Shadow Line’, which seemed to be written by someone who felt that ‘The Departed’ kind of wussed out in the killing department
Brain – feels much better, circular thinking cut back, dogs now sleeping peacefully instead of pursuing obsession with tails (hurrah)

The Once Upon a Time challenge – this year I decided I’d just try to read one book, so of couse I ended up reading more fantasy than I ever have and watched some films as well, amazing what taking the pressure off will do:

Read


'The World More Full of Weeping' – Robert J Wiersama (fantasy/fairytale feel)
'Demonglass' – Rachel Hawkins (fantasy)
'Iceland' – Betsy Toibin (myth)
'The Iron Witch' - Karen Mahoney (fantasy/myth based)
'Orphans of Eldorado' – Milton Hatoum (myth)
'Fury of the Phoenix' – Cindy Pon (fantasy)

Watched

'Red Riding Hood' (fairytale)
'Thor' (myth)
'Camelot': longass episode The First (legend) – will talk more about this and my Athurian legend reread later, the first episode has won me over and reminds me I need to crack my huge illustrated edition of Mallorey’s tales

And apart from the Hatoum movella these were all very satifying. How did everyone else get on during this challenge?

That's me back then, hopefully for a good long while of regular posting and feed reading. Again...waves.

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

Sunnier Weather

Thank you all so much for your kind and understanding words on my last post. I have contradictory feelings, because it’s always nice to know you’re not alone, but at the same time I don’t want all of you to know what I feel like. I want you all to be having the best times ever, always! Realism bites, right?

Listening to litlove’s advice I have tried to get in contact with the little voice right at my centre. Turns out that she’s telling me to chill the fuck out. Everything I want to happen can’t/isn’t happen right now, but that doesn’t mean I won’t get it done in the future and (I imagine she has her hand on her hip right now, because she seems very firm) these things may never happen if I keep following circular thinking about how they’re not getting done right now. I feel like I’m getting things done, because I’m thinking about them all.the.time, but really I’m chasing a tail I can’t see and rushing through the important tasks just to be able to cross something off that damned mental list.

So, the plan? The plan is to ditch my planning, which has grown out of all proportion until it is so obsessively detailed and ordered that there are a million breakage points where something could go wrong, causing me to give up on everything. Leave all plans at home until holiday is over. Restructure simpler plan that does not involve staying up late every night to fit all the steps in. Slow mind down. Concentrate.

Maybe I’ll try meditating eventually (the discipline required to sit quietly and not think just seems so immense though, has anyone had good experiences?), but for now I’m working on some simple mind calming exercises. I’ve let myself agree that tv is what I need at the end of the day now, not because tv is passive to watch, but because good tv centres my mind on what is happening right now on the screen. I have watched so many crime dramas in the past few days!

I’ve decided to try re-reading, as an antidote to rushing through books, or becoming annoyed too quickly. I’m a little way into ‘Wyrd Sisters’ by Terry Pratchett which I must have read 5 or so times when I was growing up and it’s just right. There are delighting moments when I remember which little incident is coming up, familiar jokes and characters, but I still can’t remember everything about the plot. Now I want to pull lots of old, familiar books off the shelves (but obs I am not rushing, because that is the point of this exercise).

Finally, I’m going to stop obsessively scheming to increase my house deposit. My wage is the same each month, nothing to be done about that (at one point I was thinking about taking a second job, going back to working retail in the evenings after a day at the office – yes I had spun out of control and would probably have hit a customer in the first month). And with that I declare the official end to the book buying ban. I broke it off a week ago, but hadn’t announced it here yet. While it was lovely and successful while it lasted, it had reached a point where it felt a bit like a punishment for extravagance rather than good sense. And here’s the modest ‘hurray for my willpower’ pile that I bought:



Thank you all for being about this week. I really did need you to speak calmly and sensibly to me. I look forward to catching up when I get back from a few days in the Jersey sunshine (yaaaaaayyyyy).

Sunday, 5 June 2011

Frustrations

It’s been a frustrating time for me recently. I’m fine, it’s just one of those times where the long road seems very long and full of holes. I also saw Kings of Leon, Belle and Sebastian and booked tickets for a day at Leeds festival purely based on Muse being the headliner. All of these things make me very happy, so really everything can’t be that bad.

Sadly the frustrations that have been buzzing around seem to have pushed themselves into my reading life as well. I spent a week hacking through a book I’m sure I would have swooned over at any other time. I picked up, put down, picked up, put down a book that despite its stunning writing feels kind of...icky, right now (so glad I came of age during the Friends generation, so I can use that word without feeling the need to clarify it – moving on). I actually finished a book, which was quite good, but wasn’t superb and it left me feeling unfairly dissatisfied.

It seems I have very specific tastes right now. I either want something exceptionally trashy (with unbelievable dialogue and lots of improbably action), or something guaranteed to move me with its brilliance. The problem is my brain tells me not to be wasting my time on trash because I’ve got so little time to read, but I’m never really sat reading long enough to concentrate on those heartbreaking works of staggering genius.

I need a compromise, because not getting a dose of satisfying reading is playing havoc with my mood right now. I need a run of books that are darkly fun, books that will drag me in with their sharps little teeth and shake me about a bit. ‘Total Oblivion’, the book Jeanne and I discuss together, did that. Despite being a little afraid of its length I found that ‘A Fine Balance’ kept me pelting through the pages, even if the ending caused my eyes to go up on stalks. I just need more of this kind of expereince and I need it guarenteed before my dissatisfaction puts me off any more perfectly pleasant books.

I guess the frustrations are part of what’s holding up my blogging here. I miss being able to get my thoughts out and I miss having the energy to comment around the town, but every time I sit down it all seems to get a bit daunting. I have how many reviews to catch up on? Man that’s a lot of posts in my feedreader. Maybe I’ll just watch another episode of ‘Miranda’ instead. But right now I’m deciding something’s got to be done about this. Last year I worked really hard on pushing the idea into my head that if I didn’t go out because I’d lost all my energy to work then work was winning. I set myself up in a proper battle where I had to win at life against the system of working for a living which only cared if I went to make money for it (inside my head, the world of work may rub its hands together more than necessary and have a trademark evil laugh). And yes, I was knackered by winter, but I had been a lot of places, done a lot of things and gathered a bunch of memories which I wouldn’t have got lying on my bed. The idea that I could ‘win’ is what got me on my healthy eating drive, but over the last three months I feel like I have slipped. I’m letting having a regular 8 – 5 job become an excuse for not doing as much, because I’m tired and frustrated at the end of the day.

I really can’t be having that. How do I expect to get anything done in life if I carry on like that? Work will not beat me out of living in up in my 20s. So, I have to stop eating emotionally, continue saving instead of emotional shopping, stop feeding myself comforting tv all the time instead of doing things like blogging, making and leaving the house.Come on capitalist systems on enterprise, let’s be having you. Motivational posts –
locked on standby.

Wednesday, 1 June 2011

Nerds Heart YA Giveaway









The Nerds Heart YA give way is now open. We have some really fabulous prizes this year:

Prize Pack One

Signed copy of ‘The Kid Table’ – Andrea Seigel
Signed paperback copy of ‘Monsoon Summer’ – Mitali Perkins
Signed copy of ‘How I Made it to Eighteen (A Mostly True Story)’ – Tracy White
Signed copy of ‘Toads and Diamonds’ – Heather Tomlinson
Signed copy of ‘Bleeding Violet’ – Dia Reeves
Signed copy of ‘Mindblind’ and bookmark – Jennifer Roy
Signed sketch by Tracy White
Signed hardcover copy of ‘Dark Water’ – Laura Mcneal
Signed paperback copy of ‘The Dark Days of Hamburger Halpin’ – Josh Berk
Signed copy of ‘Pull’ – BA Binns

Prize Pack Two

Signed copy of ‘The Kid Table’ – Andrea Seigel
Signed copy of ‘How I Made it to Eighteen (A Mostly True Story)’ – Tracy White
Signed paperback copy of ‘Secret Keeper’ – Mitali Perkins
Signed copy of ’8th Grade Superzero’ and bookmarks from Olugbemisola Rhuday-Perkovich
Paperback copy of ‘Dirty Little Secrets’ – CJ Omololu
Signed paperback copy of ‘Breathless’ – Jessica Warman
1 copy Office 2010 from Micheal Wenberg
Signed copy of ‘Five Flavours of Dumb’ – Anthony John
Copy of ‘The End: Five Queer Kids Save the World’ and magnet from Nora Olsen

and the contest is so simple to enter:

Just take a picture of one of the books on our short-list somewhere in the wild. Maybe you have a copy of the book at home, or you’ve seen it in a library, a bookshop, or even at a promotional event.

Wherever you see the book, take a picture of the book by itself, or put yourself in the picture. Then post it somewhere (On your blog, your Facebook page, your tumblr account, or Twitter account etc). Drop us a link to where you’ve posted in the comments of the
NHYA giveway post by June 13th 2011 to be entered into the contest. Please include your email address and specify whether you’d prefer to win prize pack one, or prize pack two.

For full details please visit the
NHYA website.

Good luck to all who enter.